I've seen this 'If You Really Knew Me' post idea floating around - and all the posts I have read I have really enjoyed. So I thought I'd give it a go. I mean I hardly write about myself, right? Though I think I do a good job in keeping true to myself through my writing - there are bound to be a few things you don't know about me. How about 10?
if you really knew me you'd know.....I grew up in a house with my entire extended family. Mom. Siblings. Aunts. Uncles. Cousins. And Grandma. It was like a modern day commune. Except we were all family. I think growing up in this environment helps explain me a lot. And explains why I am so different than anyone in my family. It's like I gained life skills from each of them ...and ran with it.
...I only really feel alive when I am travelling. I basically work to travel. As a 32 year old woman I should be planning to buy a house. Or be planning for children. But usually all I can think about is what country I am going to set foot on next. This is one of the reasons having a baby terrifies me. What if being a mom doesn't make me feel as alive as travelling does? That would just be a huge mess.
...I believe in second chances. My life turned upside down when I was 19. But it's only now I realize that I wouldn't have the life I have now - nor the experiences if it didn't happen. This has helped me see the good in every situation. I am proof - what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.
...I have spent far too many days in my pj's. On the couch. Watching T.V. Feeling sorry for myself. Ever since I was 16 I get into these weird funks. And they are miserable. I feel miserable. And I probably make the people around me miserable. I am grateful that I can usually pull myself out of them. Kristen wrote a great post on this topic just yesterday.
...I suck at relationships. I swear that I am emotionally damaged. I should probably see a therapist. But then again Steve is the most patient and understanding man - and he tries his hardest to 'get me'. In the, almost, ten years that we have been together I have learned what partnership is. Companionship is. Compromise is . Independence is. and most importantly what patience is. Seriously this man has helped me become more grounded - because ten years prior - lady was crazy.
...I can hold a grudge like it's nobodies business. It's a quality I dislike the most about myself. I can usually get over it and be cordial - but I will never forget it. This probably has something to do with my stubbornness. And the fact that I am an emotional mess.
...I think A LOT. Like way too much for the average person. This often leads to insomnia. Sometimes I get stuck on a thought and I will spend the entire night trying to analyze it. I wonder how much time I have wasted thinking my life away? Why can't I be a great thinker like Albert Einstein? At least I'd be coming up with awesome inventions - or teaching people how the world works. Instead I lay awake - thinking about nonsense.
...I hate how my body has changed in the last ten years - but don't have the will power to improve it. Nor do I let my unhappiness with it consume me. However - I can't even use the excuse that I had kids. This body is all self inflicted. It probably has a lot to do with my emotional baggage. Why can't that baggage ever get lost in transit? That would be freakin' awesome. Oh and I blame poutine. It's just that good.
...I desperately want to find something that I am passionate about. I have a ton of interests - but none of them make my heart swoon. I will know it when I find it. Until then I will continue to keep searching.
...I trust my gut. It's been extremely helpful these past 32 years. If it tells me no - I rarely disregard it. Honestly my gut hasn't been wrong yet. *knock on wood*
...I am super impressed that I have kept up this blog. 16 months later - Hope Squared is still kicking. Go Emily! However I may or may not have considered to stop blogging a few times. Regardless of when that day comes - I am glad that I will have some memories from our first years of marriage documented somewhere on the interweb.
Have you written one of these posts yet? Leave your link in the comments so I can get to know you better - that is if you're still kicking it around here.